Rad i3tibar part 28

3bood let go of me and looked me straight in the eyes.

3bood: you still love him??!!!!!!!!!!!

I looked down.

3bood: you don’t even know the meaning of this word. I feel sorry for him; he wasted his timeand life loving you. You don’t deserve him.

Me: you’re right he doesn’t deserve what I did to him. Let him forget about me, or better let him consider that im dead. Let him go find another girl I know that would help.

3bood: you go tell him that. You can’t do that and you know why because it will kill you to see him with someone else.

Me: no it won’t.

3bood: don’t lie, I know you too well. I saw the pain in his eyes when he found out that you and Rashood are together. The two of you got attached to each otherquickly. I can see that you love each other more than yourselves.

Me: no you’re wrong. He loves me more htan hisself. But I don’t. im selfish. Not you or he can change that.

3bood: it’s good that you know. Have fun with that bastard. Bye.

OMG!!!! What the hell did I just say? That night I couldn’t sleepat al. around 1 I got a BBm from na9oor, I was hesitant about reading it, but I did and I wish I didn’t.

“Whatever happens Rashood is still my friend and I’m happy for him. I’ll catch you at school tomorrow.”

After crying my heart out I fell asleep.

Marry woke me up. When I looked at myself I freaked out. I look like the dead. My eyes were red and swollen.

I washed my face and added a bit make up to make myself look “normal”. I got dressed in jeans and an over sized hoodie and headed downstairs.

Na9oor’s P.O.V

I’m really in no shape to go to school. I feel dead, a souleless creature. What 3bood said doesn’t make sennce. Why did she do that?

Mum: na9oor ta3al 7abeby eg3ad itrayag mish zain 7ag 97tik.

Na9oor: ma asht’hy akel. Bat25r itha ma 6la3tal7een.

Mum: t7amal.

Na9oor: inshallah.

3wash’s P.O.V.

I just closed my locker when I saw na9oor walking through the hall. What the hell have I done? His eyes are blood-shot. He was smiling until he saw rashood’s arms around me. God WTF is he doing im with himhe doesn’t have to rub it in na9oor’s face.

Me: Rashood let go of me im not in the mood.

Rashood: 7abebty what’s wrong?

Me: nothing just let go.

I pushed him and walked away thank god we only share one class. For some reason I cnat stand him.

English class

Na9oor s sitting way in the backit’s killing me. I really need him close. Even if we arnt together I still need him around me.

English teacher: okay we have 10 more minutes’ I’ll pair you up and I want you to work on writing a poem.

He kept pairing I didn’t bother listen to the names. I looked up, kind of waiting to see who my partner will be. I froze when I heard na9oor’s name.

Of all people in the class him.

English teacher: go sit by your partners and start working I want them done by tomorrow.

I stood and walked to the back of the class. I sat on the desk beside him, after I pulled it closer.

Me: hi.

He nodded in my direction. Then reached in his bag and pulled a white note book that has drawings all over the cover. They were amazing most of them showed love, pain, sadness, and darkness. The note book it’s self was almost full Arabic and englishwrittings. He ripped a paper and gave it to me.

Na9oor: its something I wrote before. You can write your name and hand it in if you want.

Then he opened a new page and started writing.

Me: you wrote this!!

Na9oor: and all these.

Me: and the drawings?

Na9oor: yes. After reading the paper he gave me my heart melted. It was simply amazing.

Me: na9oor, do you mind if I read them.

Na9oor: I don’t see why not, i mean you inspired them.

The bell rang. He got up and left.

All through the day he didn’t say anything to me. At kunch he sat with the foot ball team. I noticed he wasn’t that comfortable with Rashood around. As I passed the table they were sitting at, Rashood caught my shirt. I turned and gave him a death stare. He let go. I continued walking towards jenny.

Na9oor’s P.O.V.

It’s killing me. I know she has no feeling for him. It shows in her eyes, and stillthe idea of her being with him is killing me. I didn’t speak to him at all and im not willing to.

James: hay dude whats up with the death stare you just got. (Talking to Rashood)

Rashood: she’s been acting that way from yesterday. Chicks are weird I don’t het them.

Na9oor: (I stood up saying) maybe it’s not her it’s you and good luck if a girl is mad or upset it would take more than an apology to fix things.then I walked away.

3wash’s P.O.V.

Jenny: so, listen shoshi im having a party at my house today you’re coming right?

Me: I have nothing else to do.

Jenny: if you don’t mind ask na9er to come. You guys are friends right?

Me: yeah and okay.

I kept thinking of a way to tell na9oor but eventually I was drawn out of the thoughtas I read the things he wrote. He’s really good. The words, the way he wrote them just amazing. Every letter was written by passion.the more I read the more I love him, but because of what I did I can’t have him. God I hate myself for doing it, and to be completely honest im starting to hate Rashood he’s soo into the physical stuff. I really don’t know what to do with him.

As I walked away down the halli saw na9oor by his locker. I went to give him his note book back.

Me: I really lik them. They’re amazing.

Na9oor: thanks.

Me: na9oor jenny told me to invite you to her party today

Na9oor: I’ll see if I can come.

Me: okay.

I walked away. I got home. Marry was no where to be found so I called her.

Marry: hun im sorry im too busy with my family. You must be starving by now (she said after our hello’s and a little talk about ow her family was)

Me: don’t worry I’ll manageon my own and besides you desrve a day off.

Maryy: thaks, 3wash im sorry but I got to go. I’ll see you tonight or by tomorrow morning.

Me: bye.

As I was walking up the stairsmy phone rang. Ugh! Rashood, what the hell does he want.

Me: hi.

Rashood: are you going to jenny’s party?

Me: yes.

Rashood: I have something for you to wear open the door.

Me: okay.

I went back down and opened the door. He smiled as he saw me and kissed me as he entered.

Rashood: go try it on.

Me: thanks.

I ran to my room and locked the door. I took my clothes off. I put the dress on, it fit me just right. Although I noticed that it’s a bit too tight in the breast area.

As I was checking it out. Rashood’s voice appeared from the other side of the door.

Rashood: open the door I want to see it on you.

Me: lazim.

Rashood: yeah tara az3al.

“ fuck you man, get upset, kill your self I don’t give a damn about it” I thought as I unlocked the door.

22he walked in and sat cross legged on the floor. I pressed my self against the door.

Me: what do you think?

All of a sudden he stood up and walked towards me. As he got closeri panicked. I had no way to escape he had his hands on both sides of my face.

Me: Rashood please move.

Rashood: ummmmmmmmmmmmm………………( his lips were already on my neck)

Me: Rashood please I have to get ready.his lips were on my cheecks. Just near my lips.

Rashood: one minute that’s all I want.

He pressed his body against mine, his lips got placed on top of mine.i couldn’t breathe. Na9oor voice appeared. I almost broke down. So I held on to him. His hands went to my waist, mine got place on his cheecks pulling his face closer.

Rashood: babe can’t we stay here tonight.

Me: no (I pulled slightly away.

Rashood: then just give me and hour. I really want to be with you.

Me: I said no. nove I have to get ready.

I pushed him away. He sat on my bed as I brushed my hair, and make up. I arranged my purse. Then finally wore my heals.

Me: yallah im ready.

Rashood: finally. I just walked to the door, he followed. He was half way down the stairs. I locked the door and left. W got into his car.

Rashood: im starting to think that you shouldn’t have wore this. Don’t get me wrong you look amazingly hot. I just don’t want any guy to hit on you.

Me: so you get me this, ask me to wear it, and now you tell me I shouldn’t have wore this, Because you don’t want anyone to hit on me.

He just smiled.

As we got in the place was already crowded. I saw jenny and went to say hi. Anything to move away from Rashood.

It was fun we ate, drank, and danced. I was avoiding Rashood all the time.as I was walking away I hit someone. I looked up to see na9oor. I smiled but he looked the other way. He walked past me. I noticed he took the cast off.

A while later

I was standing talking to one of my friends when I felt someones arms around my waist.

Rashood: don’t’t mean to be rude but do you mind.

My friend: (giggiling) yeah sure.

Me: what do you want?

Rashood: you.

Me: Rashood please not infron of people I don’t like this.

Rashood: okay, there are empty rooms upstairs. We could do a little more than making out.

My eyes almost popped out.

Na9oor’s P.O.V.

I was walking when I heard him say that to her. I got filled with anger. I tapped on his shoulder. As he turned around I went straight to his nose. He backed away. Drops of blood hit the floor. The music stopped and everyone went quite.

Rashood: you fucked up bastard.

Na9oor: you can do what ever you want with me. But her (pointing at 3wash) you have no right to hurt.he attacked back and that’s what started the fight.

3wash’s P.O.V.

He did that for me. He’s such an idiot, but im even worse than him for letting him go”

I saw jenny’s cousin pulling them apart. Na9oor was still tense, but Rashood walked away. I grabbed a towel from the kitcheand went to na9oor’s side. Lifting his head up I saw a shocked expression on his face

Me: let me see, you’re an idiot you know that.

I started cleaning the blood on his face. I saw a smile forming on his face.

I saw Rashood staring at me from behind na9oor. That’s when I realized what was I doing. I moved away, handed him the towel and walked out side. I called Jackie to pick me up.