rad i3tibar part 43

3wash’sP.O.V.

It’s been a week and nothing from na9oor. I miss him a lot. Im still in shock from what he said. Even if 5aled is walking with me to the campus I feel lonely. After I got the keys to my dorm I turned and left him with out even a good bye.

I opened the door to find a girl sitting watching TV. She turned and smiled at me, but I was too down to smile back.

Me: Hi.

Shamsa: hi, im shamsa, and you must be 3wash (she paused) do you mind if I call you 3wash or do you prefer to keep it formal.

Me: it’s okay.

Shamsa: your room is the last door to the right. I thought you would want the bigger one. Mine is facing yours. The bathroom is huge, first door to the left, and…… okay I get it you need a break im here if you need me.

I got in to my room. Unpacked and sat on the bed. I turned on my phone. The first thing I saw got me in tears. The picture of me and na9oor.

The door opened.

Shamsa: 3wash…. Omg!! Sweetie what’s wrong.

She came closer to me and hugged me. She’s nice. I really like her. I told her everything. You must think its stupid, but it felt good. She listened till I finished.

(t3arfoon that feeling when you have no one to talk to so you start opening up to a stranger min kither ma ilmaw’9oo3 im’9aygch that’s what happened to 3wash)

Shamsa: he did get carried away.bas itha e’3ar 3alaich that much, he does truly love you. don’t give up on him, cause he’s worth it.

I smiled.

Shamsa: how about ice cream? 

I nodded and we both left he room.

Na9oor’s P.O.V.:

Na9oor: for the last time no.

Jessica: but…. Why?

Na9oor: I already have someone. You can tell that to every girl you know so they would stop bothering me.

It’s been two weeks and I haven’t talked to “her”. I can’t seem to get her out of my head, her face, her lips, smile, eyes, smell and even her kiss. Her voice keeps repeating in my head too with three little words. “I love you”. I really miss how her tiny figure fits perfectly in my arms.

7amad’s question poped in my head. “Would you leave na9oor for a crush on a guy that you think might treat you better?”  She said she wont, and she didn’t this is all my fault. If only I had handled it better none of this might have happened.

I walked to my next class, absent minded, Thinking of her.

3wash’s P.O.V.  

5alood: 3wash……… 3wash…… girl snap out of it.

I just stared at him.

5alood: what are you waiting for? It’s been 5 months. You’re destroying your self. i can see you two love each other. When are you going to stop this nonsence and talk to him?

Shamsa: he has a point.

I started crying. I pulled my phone out and showed them the pictures some one send to me. After that no one said a word. Na9oor: was having fun with girls and someone was sending me pictures of him doing that.

(3 months later)

3bood: go to him. It’s his birth day.

Me: he doesn’t answer my calls. How do you know he would want to see me?

3bood: go you won’t lose anything.

(2 days later on the plane)

Me: 3bood. What if he doesn’t want to see me?

3bood: keep in mind that he loves you?

3bood’s P.O.V.  

3bood: when are you going to stop ignoring her?

Na9oor: I don’t think it will be okay with you if shamma likes some one else?

3bood: you promised you won’t hurt her.

Na9oor: im not. 

3bood: she walks around looking like the dead, a creature with out a soul.

He said nothing.

3bood: go see her. She came with me.

Na9oor: I don’t want to.

3bood: you’re the one messing it up, and don’t think I don’t know about the picuters you keep sending.

Before he could say anything I left.

Na9oor’s P.O.V.

(One month later)

Mum: na9oor 7abeby ta3al eg3ad ma3ay. Min awal ma wi9alt w enteh kila lahy ib dinyaak. W aba akalmik fe maw’9oo3.

Na9oor: be’3ayty shay yal ‘3alyah.

Mum: ana w obook itkalamna 3an maw’9oo3k. mita tbana inkalim ahl il bint.

Na9oor: not now later. Ana goolkom mita.

Mum: 3ala ra7tik.

3wash’sP.O.V.

(2 and half months later)

Me: he doesn’t want me anymore.

3bood: calm down.

5alood: 5ala9 3wash everything will be okay.

Me: no it won’t.

Shamsa: 3wash please calm down (hugging me) shoofy how about you get in the warm bubble bath that I prepared for you. After that we can go for a girls day out, get your mind off him for a whiel.

I hid my face in my hands and cried more. It’s been a year. He doesn’t care, he used me, and he lied.

I started rocking my sel back and forth.

3bood: 6l3o bara3.

The door closed behind them. He pulled me in for a hug thinking of a way to calm me down.