it's been a very long day and sorry for not posting it's just that i feel empty. a7s maly mkon bil dnya. for one day i wish i could be free to do what ever i want. ma areed 7ad egool 3aib aw 7aram aw shoo baygooloon inas. a7s 3mry in a cage, locked. the key never to be found. i feel my hands are bound together with unbreakable chains.
im aching from the inside, wanting release, but at the same time i can't. i'm not allowed to shed a single tear. i've been weak ever since i can remember and i'm trying to change that. i don't want to be in that same position, where everything was a threat, where everything would make me shed non-stop tears. im trying my best to become a better person, help others instead of being helped. i wanna feel high and drunk but not with sadness but with happiness. but i don't want it to belong to me. i want it to belong to every person that i love and care about.
this is a thank you to all my followers, family and friends. i love you all.
im aching from the inside, wanting release, but at the same time i can't. i'm not allowed to shed a single tear. i've been weak ever since i can remember and i'm trying to change that. i don't want to be in that same position, where everything was a threat, where everything would make me shed non-stop tears. im trying my best to become a better person, help others instead of being helped. i wanna feel high and drunk but not with sadness but with happiness. but i don't want it to belong to me. i want it to belong to every person that i love and care about.
this is a thank you to all my followers, family and friends. i love you all.
4 comments:
7beebtee walla e5thee ra7tich ;* 5ala9 its ok dont post lain matrta7ain oo ts7een 3umrich a7san love ya <3 keep smiling and make urself a rolemodel to others thats wat im tryying to do even though its not working im nvr going to give up till i'm a role model to others and to myself ;* if u need anything u can email me u knoe my email e3tabrainee mthl e5tich u could alwayz trust me tc;*
Aww Honey we all go through ups and downs. It feels good after you vent and pour out, the pain feels less.
You need to spend more time with yourself and with Allah. You'll feel better trust me.
Whatever you're going through I've been through it. I feel you, I swear. I felt like running away once, hated everyone.
You just need a break everything will be okay inshAllah *huuug**
aww Dear, don't worry everything is going to be okay.
I know there are somedays where you get depressed, hate everyone and get this feeling i can't or don't know how to explain it, we all go through it.
Have sometime alone, relax and read Qura'an believe me you'll feel much better.
Everything will turn out to be okay inshallah.
if you need anything, i'll be here for you ;*
i'm just an email away (elyazi.89@gmail.com)
PS. i was a silent reader who reads your blog but i joined blogger world now.
i just opened my blogger w i was scrolling down this post caught my eye we all go thro this shit its kinda normal to feel that way but uk sometimes i just spend time with my buddies,family they will make u feel better and important when u feel like shit and invisible we r young we shld just go wild and crazy :D if u need to talk come online im there :)
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