Im confused

what's exactly going on. confusion set in. I was wrong then. It was a mistake not choosing you. I regret it. And I want you. I want to be yours. I want all the care, the love, the jealously, the possessiveness, and even the hate. I want that all to be directed towards me. Is it possible? Will I be able to tear down the walls you build?  In my head I think I can if only you answer to one question. Do you still like me? Deep down I know you do. But not this me you started liking the outgoing, happy, optimistic person that I used to be. Im working on going back to that. But ik that its wrong to change for the sake of someone other than yourself. I want to be happy again. My happiness comes from the happiness of the people I love and care about. You're one of them. So is it okay to use that to motivate me to change? Or is it as equally wrong? One way to find out I have to try