Unpredictable (part 7)

Asma: you dont get to do this
Faisal: asooma 7abeby please calm down
Asma: DON'T TELL ME WHAT TO DO
Faisal: staying here wont do us any good
Asma: what are you doing?
Faisal: ill drive around maybe that'll make you calm
Asma: faisal...
Faisal: im sorry I left im sorry I lost contact im sorry I didt try im sorry I didn't tell you im sorry I left you alone ans im sorry for what happened
Asma: 15 years. You knew where I was you knew everything. Fara7 helped you know everything. Why didnt you just come back?
Faisal: me leaving was bad. When I found out fara7 was your cousin I told her and made her promise not to tell. I wss waiting for the right moment.
Asma: you really think that this is the right moment?
Faisal: no its not but I didn't have a choice.
Asma: no you did. You always did
Faisal: im here now and I want to fix things

Asma: nothing you do will fix this, the wound runs too deep

faisal: asma please

asma: i hate you

faisal: you dont mean that

asma: yes i do now take me back.

new friend i dont want to lose

There was this fear and nervousness embedded in me, I never thought I’d have courage to walk up to someone and just talk. From what i heard this person wasn't that perfect, but that all changed after a question I needed the answer to. And I got that. I was thankful that I wasn't ignored and that I got an honest answer. I learned to respect this person because even after I made I clear that everything was okay I still received a message later that day making sure that things were cool. Slowly I got to know this person better and better. I shouldn't have judged based on what I heard and i'm glad I didn't depend on it. But something wasn't right, there was something missing, something at lost. I tried to believe that there was trusts between us since I got to know very little details, somehow personal one. This person turned out to be not at all what I expected. The kind of person you depend on, the kind of person you trust, the kind of person you need as a friend. Modest, funny, honest, awesome, but yet very confused. I admit we’re still very young too many more things to see in the world and a lot more to learn. As weird as it seems, because I haven’t known this person for too long, I wish them all the best, in everything.

Good friends are hard to come by, when you find one try not to let go. I wrote this inspired by a new friend, but I wanted to prefect it before it could be read because they deserve perfect. I think I did a stupid mistake that might have cause the feeling “upset” to emerge so what better time to show how much my friend means to me…….

Reading between the lines

For a while now ive been trying to understand people. Ive been trying to understand their thoughts, their actions, and their personality. I spend a lot of time staring at my twitter timeline. One person caught my       attention, and I usually look for him on my TL. He's the casual guy, with lost of mystery. As social as he is, his random tweeting to himself about emotions drives me crazy. It confuses me. One minute he's solid and the other he's a hot mess. For some reason I learned a lesson, it wont do me any good thinking about who people really are. Sometimes whats on the surface, the obvious, is more than enough. But i always will have some interest in knowing who he is..

Thank you @Khalefornia for the thoughts

Unpredictable (part 6b)

Asma:hey
Faisal: hi im sorry didnt mean to wake you up
Asma: its okay I slept more then enough.
Faisal: you van leave the room ypu know you arent obligates to trap yourself here.
Asma: maybe I will
Faisal: and if you want to see your parents we could take you.
Asma: but fara7 said I cant at least not for a while.
Faisal: I guess we can not tell her about it.
Asma: really??
Faisal: yeah I could take you.
Asma: that would bw great but I dont want to put you in trouble
Faisal: dont worry so tonight?
Asma: that would be great

Fara7

Fara7: lets hope she notices the key before you guys leave the house.
Fahad: what if she tries to leave?
Faisal: ill lock the doors
Mona: lets hope this works out

Faisal

Faisal: you ready?
Asma: what about fara7?
Faisal: mona and fahad will distract her. We have about two hours
Asma: okay.

They got in the car and he locked the doors.
Faisal: asma..
She turned to look at him and noticed the key chain. All visible emotions dissappeared.

Asma: get me out of here..
Faisal: asma please
Asma:unlock the doors.
Faisal: a7bch

Unpredictable ( part 6a)

Faisal

Faisal: why cant I go?
Mona: because
Fahad: she needs her space
Fara7: guys
Faisal: fara7 can I go to her. They arent letting me
Fara7: well she went to sleep after I changed her bandages
Faisal: oh...
Mona: we have to find a way to get them together, quick. Or else he has to leave
Fara7: well I think I figured out how. We can get her to know its you using the keychain
Fahad: how would that help its not like she knows he has it
Fara7: thats all we have to do. Make her know.
Faisal: use it as bait?
Mona: you guys realise there is a really bad side to all this she might get mad at you and the shock would be too much.
Faisal: its a risk im willing to take.

Unpredictable (part5)

Faisal: fara7 fara7!!!
Fara7: what? Why are you yelling at this time of the morning??
Faisal: enty t3arfeen ana shoo aba
Fara7: for real??
Faisal: well she saw me half naked when I was getting my clothes
Fara7: are you for real?? The girl is traumatized she doesnt need more, and we. Are. Supposed. To. Be. Helping. Her. (She was poking him with every word)
Faisal: ouch oh and I made her breakfast. Her favorite, well if it still is and I just sat there
Fara7: you haven't told her right?
Faisal: I can't
Fara7: ill go to her

Fara7

Fara7: asooma... you are soo into what you're eating
Asma: it's my favorite
Fara7 : (he was right) its his way of saying sorry he didn't mean to freak you out
Asma: (turning red) thank him for me please
Fara7 : would you let go of that necklace you were clutching it even in your sleep
Asma : it makes me feel comfortable
Fara7 : you did say someone special gave it to you
Asma: faisal
Fara7: who??
Asma: you know from when I was a kid he send this the day he left and its benen 15 years since I last saw him
Fara7: your eyes sparkled
Asma: I know it might sound stupid but I think I love him
Fara7: have you tried to contact him
Asma:he hasnt so I got scared of doing that
Fara7: dont give up, always hope. Im sure he's out there waotong for you
Asma: I wish he would hurry and show up.
I just smiled making a mental note to talk to him

Im sorry guys for taking soo long I finished exams and graduated yaay so now im freeeee ill post soon

Im confused

what's exactly going on. confusion set in. I was wrong then. It was a mistake not choosing you. I regret it. And I want you. I want to be yours. I want all the care, the love, the jealously, the possessiveness, and even the hate. I want that all to be directed towards me. Is it possible? Will I be able to tear down the walls you build?  In my head I think I can if only you answer to one question. Do you still like me? Deep down I know you do. But not this me you started liking the outgoing, happy, optimistic person that I used to be. Im working on going back to that. But ik that its wrong to change for the sake of someone other than yourself. I want to be happy again. My happiness comes from the happiness of the people I love and care about. You're one of them. So is it okay to use that to motivate me to change? Or is it as equally wrong? One way to find out I have to try 

Livin la vida loca~

Emptiness, loneliness, darkness. I lost touch with myself but that changed, you wanna know how? I met a fool....
One of the first words I said was inspiring. Wont make much sense to you guys. It took courage for me to talk to him. His kind intimidate me, but I certainly wont regret it. He's the most confident, kind, and understanding person and I talked to him for less than half and hour, well he did the talking.  Point is he got me to understand that believing in myself is the key to everything you know who you are, you created yourself so dont go destroying yourswlf woth thw thoughts of others. I know it has an effect. With me I got trapped, I felt caged my society. Why? Because im a female. I started believing that Im a failure,that no matter how hard I try im not going anywhere. So he told me his story, displayed his thoughts. God bless his soul. A while ago I did realize that I was basically preparing my deathbed (not literally) and I managed to get up and fix the mess I made of myself, he gave me that little push to go on.
Sometimes its okay to fall, as long as you get up. It's okay to listen to what people say if you believe that what you're doing is right. Sometimes its even more than okay to be a fool....
Livin la vida loca~

Publish??

Im thinking of publishing rad i3tibar as an actual book in stores if the committee agreed to it what do you guys think? And please I want your opinion on the story with your names

reply

thank you for all the support i enjoyed reading your comments they made me the happiest person on earth and im really trying to post as soon as i can its just school is taking most of my time. im really sorry but my studies are important right now for my future. about the two people who commented on the actual post of unpredictable part 4 http://3afreetah-almehairi.blogspot.com/2013/02/unpredictable-part-4.html#comments
you said you read a story like it and called me a liar well i dont know what to say to you i wrote that story on my own in class mostly in physics and its bound to have similar stories but its only the beginning of it it might turn out completely different. i dont care if you believe me or not but i promise if you get me the blogs name ill read it and if my story is the exact same ill stop posting it. im not a thief and i most defiantly dont lack originality. and to be honest if i stole this story i would have dont the same to the other first two. my passion is writing that's why i blog i want people to know that i have this talent that i want to share but if ill have people telling my im a lying thief i wont share them here anymore.
thank you
-amna almehairi

Where are you

Ive been through a lot this past few months (spares you the details) and I havent written anything during that time I posted but got no feedback please comment I really want to know if I lost the talent
@3freetahas_blog is my twitter account and you can email me at asm_96@live.com thank you

unpredictable (part 4)

Fahad: it’s almost 5 go to sleep.

Fai9al: I can’t.

Fahad: goom mob magdar wallah 5ayef 3al bent madry shoo nawee tsawelha Tara mob nag9a.

Fai9al: 5ala9 3ad ma basawee shay roo7 ethlef 3nd 7rmatk w ent saket.

Asma

I opened my eyes slowly as I remembered what happened. When I was awake I saw him, upper body revealed with only a towel covering his lower parts. I was going to scream but quickly covered my mouth as I noticed the water droplets running down his shoulders from his hair.

Fai9al: I'm sorry I just came to get my clothes didn’t mean to wake you up.

I wanted to say something but closed my mouth. Could I get more embarrassed?

Fai9al: it’s okay I get it. Anyways how about we change the mood a bit, care to join me for breakfast?

I looked away without answering him because I couldn’t. He took his clothes and walked out.

Fai9al

I didn’t mean to freak her out I should have taken my clothes before I went to take a shower. I know she won’t come for breakfast with me. So I prepared a pretty much decent breakfast in bed meal for her.

Fai9al: e7m

Asma: huh?

Fai9al: may I come in?

Asma: yeah sure it is your room after all.

Fai9al: I got you breakfast. You must be hungry.

Asma: ummm thank you.

Fai9al: any time.

I just sat there and stared at her face. I miss starting at those wonderful eyes, amazing smile….

Asma: do you want some?

Fai9al: huh, no bil3afya 3alaich I already ate.

Asma: Allah y3afeek.

Fai9al: I don’t mean to ummm… if you need to talk to anyone we’re all here. Think about it, it might help.

Asma: okay.

Fai9al: if you need anything call on me or any of the girls.

She nodded before I left. As much as I wanted to stay I knew she needed her space I just wish I could tell her, but it’s too late and too early now.

Hello?? You guys still there??

I miss writting here. I really truely hope that you guys are still here. Ive been soo busy with school and I still am its stressing me out. I havent written for a while but I want to go back to it. I'll try to post as soon as possible