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Hi guys lsn I have some bad news due to school im not allowed to post during the week. I know. 7ata ana im upset but in the week end ill try to make it up to you if I had the time ill post 5 parts this weekend. Plz la tz3loon 3aly you know I love you all.

Rad i3tibar part 28

3bood let go of me and looked me straight in the eyes.

3bood: you still love him??!!!!!!!!!!!

I looked down.

3bood: you don’t even know the meaning of this word. I feel sorry for him; he wasted his timeand life loving you. You don’t deserve him.

Me: you’re right he doesn’t deserve what I did to him. Let him forget about me, or better let him consider that im dead. Let him go find another girl I know that would help.

3bood: you go tell him that. You can’t do that and you know why because it will kill you to see him with someone else.

Me: no it won’t.

3bood: don’t lie, I know you too well. I saw the pain in his eyes when he found out that you and Rashood are together. The two of you got attached to each otherquickly. I can see that you love each other more than yourselves.

Me: no you’re wrong. He loves me more htan hisself. But I don’t. im selfish. Not you or he can change that.

3bood: it’s good that you know. Have fun with that bastard. Bye.

OMG!!!! What the hell did I just say? That night I couldn’t sleepat al. around 1 I got a BBm from na9oor, I was hesitant about reading it, but I did and I wish I didn’t.

“Whatever happens Rashood is still my friend and I’m happy for him. I’ll catch you at school tomorrow.”

After crying my heart out I fell asleep.

Marry woke me up. When I looked at myself I freaked out. I look like the dead. My eyes were red and swollen.

I washed my face and added a bit make up to make myself look “normal”. I got dressed in jeans and an over sized hoodie and headed downstairs.

Na9oor’s P.O.V

I’m really in no shape to go to school. I feel dead, a souleless creature. What 3bood said doesn’t make sennce. Why did she do that?

Mum: na9oor ta3al 7abeby eg3ad itrayag mish zain 7ag 97tik.

Na9oor: ma asht’hy akel. Bat25r itha ma 6la3tal7een.

Mum: t7amal.

Na9oor: inshallah.

3wash’s P.O.V.

I just closed my locker when I saw na9oor walking through the hall. What the hell have I done? His eyes are blood-shot. He was smiling until he saw rashood’s arms around me. God WTF is he doing im with himhe doesn’t have to rub it in na9oor’s face.

Me: Rashood let go of me im not in the mood.

Rashood: 7abebty what’s wrong?

Me: nothing just let go.

I pushed him and walked away thank god we only share one class. For some reason I cnat stand him.

English class

Na9oor s sitting way in the backit’s killing me. I really need him close. Even if we arnt together I still need him around me.

English teacher: okay we have 10 more minutes’ I’ll pair you up and I want you to work on writing a poem.

He kept pairing I didn’t bother listen to the names. I looked up, kind of waiting to see who my partner will be. I froze when I heard na9oor’s name.

Of all people in the class him.

English teacher: go sit by your partners and start working I want them done by tomorrow.

I stood and walked to the back of the class. I sat on the desk beside him, after I pulled it closer.

Me: hi.

He nodded in my direction. Then reached in his bag and pulled a white note book that has drawings all over the cover. They were amazing most of them showed love, pain, sadness, and darkness. The note book it’s self was almost full Arabic and englishwrittings. He ripped a paper and gave it to me.

Na9oor: its something I wrote before. You can write your name and hand it in if you want.

Then he opened a new page and started writing.

Me: you wrote this!!

Na9oor: and all these.

Me: and the drawings?

Na9oor: yes. After reading the paper he gave me my heart melted. It was simply amazing.

Me: na9oor, do you mind if I read them.

Na9oor: I don’t see why not, i mean you inspired them.

The bell rang. He got up and left.

All through the day he didn’t say anything to me. At kunch he sat with the foot ball team. I noticed he wasn’t that comfortable with Rashood around. As I passed the table they were sitting at, Rashood caught my shirt. I turned and gave him a death stare. He let go. I continued walking towards jenny.

Na9oor’s P.O.V.

It’s killing me. I know she has no feeling for him. It shows in her eyes, and stillthe idea of her being with him is killing me. I didn’t speak to him at all and im not willing to.

James: hay dude whats up with the death stare you just got. (Talking to Rashood)

Rashood: she’s been acting that way from yesterday. Chicks are weird I don’t het them.

Na9oor: (I stood up saying) maybe it’s not her it’s you and good luck if a girl is mad or upset it would take more than an apology to fix things.then I walked away.

3wash’s P.O.V.

Jenny: so, listen shoshi im having a party at my house today you’re coming right?

Me: I have nothing else to do.

Jenny: if you don’t mind ask na9er to come. You guys are friends right?

Me: yeah and okay.

I kept thinking of a way to tell na9oor but eventually I was drawn out of the thoughtas I read the things he wrote. He’s really good. The words, the way he wrote them just amazing. Every letter was written by passion.the more I read the more I love him, but because of what I did I can’t have him. God I hate myself for doing it, and to be completely honest im starting to hate Rashood he’s soo into the physical stuff. I really don’t know what to do with him.

As I walked away down the halli saw na9oor by his locker. I went to give him his note book back.

Me: I really lik them. They’re amazing.

Na9oor: thanks.

Me: na9oor jenny told me to invite you to her party today

Na9oor: I’ll see if I can come.

Me: okay.

I walked away. I got home. Marry was no where to be found so I called her.

Marry: hun im sorry im too busy with my family. You must be starving by now (she said after our hello’s and a little talk about ow her family was)

Me: don’t worry I’ll manageon my own and besides you desrve a day off.

Maryy: thaks, 3wash im sorry but I got to go. I’ll see you tonight or by tomorrow morning.

Me: bye.

As I was walking up the stairsmy phone rang. Ugh! Rashood, what the hell does he want.

Me: hi.

Rashood: are you going to jenny’s party?

Me: yes.

Rashood: I have something for you to wear open the door.

Me: okay.

I went back down and opened the door. He smiled as he saw me and kissed me as he entered.

Rashood: go try it on.

Me: thanks.

I ran to my room and locked the door. I took my clothes off. I put the dress on, it fit me just right. Although I noticed that it’s a bit too tight in the breast area.

As I was checking it out. Rashood’s voice appeared from the other side of the door.

Rashood: open the door I want to see it on you.

Me: lazim.

Rashood: yeah tara az3al.

“ fuck you man, get upset, kill your self I don’t give a damn about it” I thought as I unlocked the door.

22he walked in and sat cross legged on the floor. I pressed my self against the door.

Me: what do you think?

All of a sudden he stood up and walked towards me. As he got closeri panicked. I had no way to escape he had his hands on both sides of my face.

Me: Rashood please move.

Rashood: ummmmmmmmmmmmm………………( his lips were already on my neck)

Me: Rashood please I have to get ready.his lips were on my cheecks. Just near my lips.

Rashood: one minute that’s all I want.

He pressed his body against mine, his lips got placed on top of mine.i couldn’t breathe. Na9oor voice appeared. I almost broke down. So I held on to him. His hands went to my waist, mine got place on his cheecks pulling his face closer.

Rashood: babe can’t we stay here tonight.

Me: no (I pulled slightly away.

Rashood: then just give me and hour. I really want to be with you.

Me: I said no. nove I have to get ready.

I pushed him away. He sat on my bed as I brushed my hair, and make up. I arranged my purse. Then finally wore my heals.

Me: yallah im ready.

Rashood: finally. I just walked to the door, he followed. He was half way down the stairs. I locked the door and left. W got into his car.

Rashood: im starting to think that you shouldn’t have wore this. Don’t get me wrong you look amazingly hot. I just don’t want any guy to hit on you.

Me: so you get me this, ask me to wear it, and now you tell me I shouldn’t have wore this, Because you don’t want anyone to hit on me.

He just smiled.

As we got in the place was already crowded. I saw jenny and went to say hi. Anything to move away from Rashood.

It was fun we ate, drank, and danced. I was avoiding Rashood all the time.as I was walking away I hit someone. I looked up to see na9oor. I smiled but he looked the other way. He walked past me. I noticed he took the cast off.

A while later

I was standing talking to one of my friends when I felt someones arms around my waist.

Rashood: don’t’t mean to be rude but do you mind.

My friend: (giggiling) yeah sure.

Me: what do you want?

Rashood: you.

Me: Rashood please not infron of people I don’t like this.

Rashood: okay, there are empty rooms upstairs. We could do a little more than making out.

My eyes almost popped out.

Na9oor’s P.O.V.

I was walking when I heard him say that to her. I got filled with anger. I tapped on his shoulder. As he turned around I went straight to his nose. He backed away. Drops of blood hit the floor. The music stopped and everyone went quite.

Rashood: you fucked up bastard.

Na9oor: you can do what ever you want with me. But her (pointing at 3wash) you have no right to hurt.he attacked back and that’s what started the fight.

3wash’s P.O.V.

He did that for me. He’s such an idiot, but im even worse than him for letting him go”

I saw jenny’s cousin pulling them apart. Na9oor was still tense, but Rashood walked away. I grabbed a towel from the kitcheand went to na9oor’s side. Lifting his head up I saw a shocked expression on his face

Me: let me see, you’re an idiot you know that.

I started cleaning the blood on his face. I saw a smile forming on his face.

I saw Rashood staring at me from behind na9oor. That’s when I realized what was I doing. I moved away, handed him the towel and walked out side. I called Jackie to pick me up.

Rad i3tibar part 27

I wanted to push him away. I became weak when na9oor’s face appeared in my head. Rashood gained enterence easily. He moved his tongue in my mouth. My brain shut down when it cirlcled mine. That’s when I froze.i heard na9oor’s voice in my head telling me to stop. That’s when Rashood got a response from me. I wanted to get rid of na9oor’s voice. It kept repeating in my head. I was being tortured. On the other hand Rashood seems to be enjoyingthings, his hands moved away from my hands to my sides.

I couldn’t stop myself I started crying. Rashood pulled away directly.

Rashood: 3wash 7abebty whats wrong?

I didn’t answer I just got off the bed and ran to the bathroom. I locked the door twice.

Rashood: 3wash what’s wrong, did I do something?

I didn’t answer all I did was cry harder.

Rashood’s P.O.V.

When I saw her cry, I felt guilty. She downt deserve to be treated this way. I stood out side the barthroom door trying to know whats wrong with her. I knew I was making things worse, because everytime I talked she would cry even more. Guilt was eating me up alive.

3wash’s P.O.V.

10 minutes later rashood’s voice was no longer there.

Me: Rashood.

Rashood: 7ayaty 3wash 6l3y aba akalmich.

Me: no, I don’t want to talk please Rashood can you leave I want to stay alone for a while.

Rashood: but…………

Me: if you love me go.

He didn’t answer then.

Rashood: okay but call me.

I heard the door close. When I got out he was gone. I threw myself on the bed. I called 3bood, he didn’t answer. I kept calling him but still no answer. I broke down again. I buried my head in the pillow. About ten minutes later my phone rang it was 3bood.

Me: aloo.

3bood: (ib kil brood) na3am.

Me: where are you?

3bood: im with na9oor.

It was obveious that I was obvious that I was crying, but he said nothing.

Me: 3bood can you come I need to talk to you.

3bood: I don’t want to.

Me: this isn’t fair you promised that you will always be there for me.

3bood: youm bat7seen 3ala damich call me. I have to go bye.

3bood’s P.O.V

Na9oor: why the hell did you do that?

3bood: why do you care?

5aloof: she’s your cousingo to her. (5aloof is very close to na9oor so he knows everything)

3bood: I have a question, did Rashood come see you or talk to you after all this happened?

Na9oor: what the fuck does he have to do with this?

3bood: do you really think ill be mad at her because she isn’t willing to get back to you? Trust me if that’s the case I would be on her side.

Na9oor: look I don’t give rats’ ass about Rashood right now but why did you bring him up.

3bood: ill tell you why. Do you know that after you two broke up he was there with her, asking her out? Telling her that he wants her, loves her. Yesterday he was with her till aroung 1, kissing her. Do you think he could show his face to you after all that?

At that exact moment na9oor’s face turned pale.

5aloof: what??!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

3bood: al7een 3raft laish ana ga3ed asawee chethey feha.

Na9oor rested his head and closed his eyes.

5aloof: hatha wa7ed ma yste7y. We are talking about his best friend. If it was his brother soo baysawee?

3bood: to be honest it’s her not him.she gave him too much attention. I fell disgusted minha il 7mara.

Na9oor: 3bood shut the fuck up. Don’t even dare talk about her that way ill kill you tfham.

3bood: 5aloof hatha 9a7y wala shoo. If shamma does that to me ill kill her

5aloof: ill do the same if this happened with me and asma (his cousin w 5a6ebta)

Na9oor: 3bood 3shany go to her. She was crying. Make sure she’s okay and when you leave call me.

3bood: if you didn’t ask for it yourself I would have never bothered.

Na9oor: thank you I own you a lot.

3bood: bye.

I got in the car and drove to her house.

3wash’s P.O.V

i was crying so hard, I tried to stop but failed. It just hurts too much. I feel the pain spread through me. I heard the door open then close. I looked up to see 3bood standing jdamy.

Me: what do you want?

3bood: if it wasn’t for na9oor I wouldn’t be here. Wallah 7aram 3alaich, it isn’t fair for him.

Me: please stop, don’t add on me.

3bood: look at your self you’re a mess.

This time while I was crying Igi3at sh’hag I closed my eyes 3shan ahda.i felt 3boods arms around me.

3bood: why are you crying? Na9oor got out of your lifeand you have some one else you should be happy 9a7?

Me: I still love him

Rad i3tibar part 26

Know I know you guys must hate me bas wallah sorry I would explain but It would take me a while ill post another soon, hope you enjoy this one w sorry .

Rashood had his arms wrapped around my waist. His head was rested on my shoulders as he kissed my neck.

Me: Rashood bas 3aad.

Rashood: ma aba.

He lifted his head and kissed my cheeks. My face went completely red.

Me: rashooooood

He didn’t move

Me: Rashood yala goom 3shan nroo7 nakel.

Rashood: okay.

I laughed. He took his plate and went to sit fi i9alah. I put my plate on the tableand went to the TV, opened the drawer w 6ala3t two of my favorite movies.

1) 27 dresses

2) 2 fast 2 furious

Me: which one

Rashood: I like the second one bas im a sucker for a RomCom.

Me: I like (with a smile on my face)

Rashood: la tig3deen tit7ar6emain. Yallah go play the movie.

I put the movie in the dvd player w threw the remote at him I turned of the lights w went to sit beside him I took my first bite then looked at Rashood. He was staring at the cake.

Me: you don’t have to eat it if you don’t want to.

Rashood: I want to bas mit3ayez maly 5lg at7arak.

Me: inzain start the movie.

Rashood: okay.

We were half way threw the movie when he talked.

Rashood: 3wash 6a3meny min il cake.

I did as he said. The next thing I knew I was feeding him.

Rashood: a7la cake min a7la eed.

Me: thanks.

Rashood: t3aley insad7y beside me.

I got up he stretched his legs across the couch w ana beside him. He wrapped his arm around my waist, kissed my cheeks. We continues the movie, when it finished I don’t know how but he managed to turn me to face him. We stared into each others eyes. I felt a piercing pain in me. I was lost mob 3arfa shoo agool w shoo asawee. Rashood moved the lock of hair that fell covering my face, then he leaned in and placed his lips on mine. The first thing that popped in my mind was na9oor. i didn’t notice that I was kissing him back. But when I didn’t na9oors image disappeared. So I didn’t mind it at all. My fingers tangled in his hair. He cupped my face in his hands. My lips parted and so did his.he kept moving until he was on top of me. That’s when I felt his tongue on my lips. I closed my mouth directly. He tried to gain entrencebut I didn’t let him. He started nibbeling on my lower lip. That feels good I heard a door close. W rij3atly all my senses. Oh shit! I totally forgot marry’s home. I pushed Rashood min fougy w sat straight. He had this confused look on his face.

Me: marry’s home

Rashood: oh

Marry: (came out of no where) 3wash tomorrow you have school don’t stay up late.

Rashood: I should get going then.

Me: bye w take care.

Rashood: sweet dreams.

As soon as he left I ran to my room. Threw myself on the bed, and before I knew it I was asleep.

Marry: 3wash you’re going to be late, wake up.

Me: I dpnt want to.

Marry: come on wake up.

Me: nooooooooooooo

Marry: I made blueberry pancakes.

Me: I’ll be ready in ten minutes (as I was walking to the bathroom)

After a big stack of pancakes I got I the car.

I checked my BB. I had a dozen missed calls min 3bood, dad,w fa6oom, but nothing from na9oor.

I called 3bood first.

Me: halla.

3bood: ahlain.

Me: shoo feek.

3bood: enty ely shoo feech. Marry called me ams w told me about ely 9ar. Ma 3ndich i7itraam.

Me: 3bood 7aram 3alaik, adree ely sawaitah ‘3ala6. But it helps me forget about na9oor.w I will do anything 3shan ansah.

3bood: I don’t know who you are any more. Mish gader afhamich bas agloo youm bat7seen 3ala damich w tit2sefain 7ag na9oor la2nich ‘9lamty kalmeny. (He hung up, just like that)

I called my dad.

Dad: halla bil ‘3alyah.

Me: ahlain dad wi9alt.

Dad: yeah wi9alti called bas I’9aher you were asleep.

Me: yeah.

Dad: inzain ana ma ba6awel 3alaich adree 3ndich school.take care

Me: you to.

After I hung up I thought of calling fa6oom.

Jackie: 3wash we are at your school.

Me: wait I need to call someone.

Fa6oom: 3waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaash.

Me: fa6oooooooooooooooom

Fa6oom: I missed you.

Me: me too. Ni6la3 ilyoum.

Fa6oom: im sorry cant maybe another day.

Me: okay.

Fa6oom: 3wash la tiz3eleen meny bas what happened between you and na9oor.

Me: ummmmmmmmmmmmm

Fa6oom: he explained to me and asked me to tell you something.

Me: I don’t want to know.

Fa6oom: just listen. That girl zoey, he has nothing to do with her not after she cheated on him on the second week. So he broke up with her. Nothing happened.

Me: what ever fa6oom. Im done with him anyways so it doiesnt matter.

Fa6oom: please think about it.

Me: even if I did nothing would change im already with someone else.

Fa6oom: oh

Me: I got to go. Wi9alt il school.

Fa6oom: bye.

I got out of the car and moved to the front window.

Me: thanks Jackie. ( I blew her a kiss)

I bumped into someone as I backed away from the car.

Me: sorry (as I turned around. When I saw im I froze)

…………: its okay.

Okay, im going crazy now.i saw him enter the administration.i had to go to class so I didn’t follow him.

As I got in class I got a BBM from Rashood

“The look on your face was priceless. What do you think of th e surprise?”

To Rashood: “The best surprise ever;********* I got to go class is starting

From Rashood:” okay”

During lunch

Jenny: shoshi are you planning to have your b-day party after or before the finals.

I didn’t answer. Rashood’s smile caught my eyes. I smiles back. He moved his handindicating to me to sit with him and what seems to be the football team.

Me: girls I’ll catch up with you later.

I sat beside him. He put his arms around me and kissed my cheeks.

Rashood: 7ayaty I made the team. Bad5al in na9oors place. Come see me during practice next week.

Me: okay ill try my best.

Rashood: I wish to see you so I can play better. (In my ears) you’re my lucky charm

Me: Rashood please stay away I don’t like someone being too close.

One of the guys: rashed come on the girl is blushing hard give her some space.

That made my face turn into 100 shades of red. I felt heat radiating from it.

Rashood: dude she’s my girl I do what ever I want with her

I coughed

Rashood:9a7a 7abebty. Hach drink.

He handed me a bottle of water. As I was drinking. Well as Rashood held the bottle by my mouth. Sarooh past by she stopped when she saw me.

Sarooh: 3wash you turned to a tomboywhen you lost your girls posy. You know you can sit with us if you want to.

Me: huh you wish. Ba3dain a9eer tomboy wala ag3ad ma3ach. Next time just don’t bother ask. Save your self the effort.because the answer will always be no. don’t embarressyourself any further, and get going with your dramatic exit.

The guys laughed alomg with me. You should have seen her face. Rashood didn’t say a word. After a while,

Rashood: im staying with you today.

Me: sure but I don’t want to stay home.

Rashood: ba3dain ni5tar mekan

Me: okay

After school I met Rashood at his locker.

Rashood: I’ll go home take a shower then I’ll come to you.

Me: okay. I got to go Jackie is waiting out side (I was turning to walk away)

Rashood: wait

Me: what?

Rashood: give me a kiss.

Me: I don’t want to.

He pulled me closer. I tried to move away.

Rashood: you’re not leaving until I get that kiss

He tightened his arms around me and placed his lips on mine. I pulled away quickly.

Me: I have to go ill see you later.

Wi9alt il bait. As I got out of the car marry rushed out of the house.

Me: marry where are you going?

Marry: my sister is giving birth; my brother is in the ER he had a car accident. My mum had a break down and my dad isn’t answering the phone. Im sorry 3wash I have to go ill be back tomorrow when you come from school.

Me: call me.

Marry: bye.

I got in the house took a shower, wore a peachy shirt with white pants. I dried my hair. I heard a knock on the door.

Rashood: can I come in.

Me: yeah.

Rashood: (he fell on my bed) aaaaaaaa5 galbi

I ran and sat beside him.

Me: Rashood, Rashood goom 3an il istehbaal.

Rashood: galbi in9idam. Wayed 7ilwa. 7aram 3alaich ma asta7mal.

Me: (I hit him on his chest) malat 3alaik.

He moved quickly and pinned me on my back. He was sort of on top of mebas rafi3 3mrah with his hands against mines.

Me: Rashood goom

I said that as he leaned in and placed his lips on the side of my neck

Rashood: hmm.

He kept kissing me there. Then he went up to my face.first my head, then my eyes, nose my cheeks, jaw line then finally my lips