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bader's P.O.V.

bader: what am i going to do?

saif: man up you have been waiting for this child.

bader: i don't want .... i cant im not mentally prepared for this moment.

7anan: bader she's asking for you she cant do it with out you.

and i just freeze in my place. me? go in there? see my love in pain and screaming do i really want to see that??

7anan: bader come on.

bader: okay okay.

saif: relax will you?

after i got dressed in the hospital blue robes i entered to see he sitting there lifeless with the doctor telling her to push harder. that sight got me moving by her side.

bader: you can do it babe just try harder.

nouf: i .. i cant

bader: im here ill help you just breath and try to focus.

 nouf's mum: im here with you too just try you'll feel better later.

nouf's P.O.V.

5 hours later...

finally i heard that soft heartwarming cry.
bader: you did a very wonderful job sweetie
nouf: we both did.
bader: i love you so much
nurse: there you go... put your hand under his head
mum: im a grandmother now.
doctor: well congratulations on your first new born
mum: any suggestions for names?
bader: we were thinking about that if you dont mind we want to call him ahmad.
nouf: like my dad so we can have him with us even if by name....
my mums eyes teared up and she smiled at us.
mum: can i ??
nouf: here..
bader kissed my forehead.
mum: here bader why dont you carry him?
bader: ummm i dont know how.
mum: come here ... yes hold him like that yes yes.... see your holding him just perfectly
bader: i think he's smiling
doctor: why dont we go clean up ahmad while your wife rests and you can go fill in the information for his birth certificate.

well today 30/7/2012 nouf and baders baby son was born a year from now his 1st birthday (well in the story that is) but in real life on this day which is today a very special friend will be celebrating her 16th birthday wish you all the best jayjay

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after a some photos they left obviously except saif. they stood there smiling at the camera. the lady asking them for poses, but not even in one picture did he let go of her hand.

saif: why are you nervous?
7anan: you do realize that this is a huge step in our lives right?
saif: well smile and relax we're already a step ahead.
7anan: is 9ager coming with us?
saif: we'll be gone only 2 weeks he can handle staying with his grandparents
7anan: but...
saif: ill keep you busy you wont be worrying about him
7anan: saif 3aib not here everyone is staring
saif: ironic isnt it?
nouf: you two settle down they're bringing the cake in
they both stood up as the cake was in front of them they both held the long knife his hand overlapping hers and slowly cut down the cake. the hotel lady cut a piece and gave each a fork to feed the other. it was cute since saif was nervous. then came the drinks in separate cups then in the same. after a while later they headed up to their hotel room.

mum: nouf whats wrong u seemed very tired.
nouf: the baby wont stop kicking.
saif's mum: its your month right?
nouf: yeah.... excuse me bader is out waiting good night

bader: nouf maybe i should take you to the hospital a7san you dont seem okay at all.
nouf: its nothing
bader: are you sure??
nouf: yes now go back to sleep.

hours later

nouf: bader... bader
bader: whats wrong?
nouf: get your keys in having your baby now
bader: what?
nouf: my water broke god dammit just take me to the hospital before i give birth on our bed

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7anan: what do you mean they aren't divorced?
nouf: she said he gave her the choice and then left the papers are still with her unsigned.
bader: does he  know?
nouf: i don't think so because he called her once after he left and thats it nothing after that.
7anan: do you think he's dead?
nouf: that's the most probable thing.
bader: you two stop talking this way. you still have a dad and for all we know he might still be alive.
nouf: i hope.
7anan: i can't show mum that i know right?
nouf: yeah but i just thought you should know.
7anan: you know i never hated him.
nouf: yeah me neither.

back at their house

nouf: bader?
bader: 3yoona
nouf: you won't be like him and leave right>
bader: are you seriously asking me that nouf?
nouf: well i ...
bader: come here.

i placed my head on his chest and cried. i cried out of fear of having a baby, of bader leaving, or dying, i cried out of sadness for my mum, and that my dad left.

bader: i love you too much to do that

7anan: nouf im ....
nouf: a beautiful bride. he loves you remember that
mum: its time for you to go in.
nouf; remember two steps count till 4 look at one side walk, count look the other side and smile ill be right there behind you.
7anan: okay.

the music slowly began as the large doors opened exposing my sister to all eyes of the guests. she started to walk people stared some with smiles some with eyes full of jealousy. but who can blame them saif was something. finally she was up there smiling to the cameras and people. family first got up there talking pictures and congratualtions. after a whole lot of that it was announced that the men were coming in seeming that no father and no brother my eldest uncles and bader would come in with saif his dad and his brother.7anan slowly stood up with her head lowered waiting for their approach. saif had the most genuine smile.it was obvious that he was happy and sure about what he's doing. finally he was right in front of her. he slowly lifter her face to meet his, he then closed his eyes as he kissed her forehead.....

my inspiration

usually when a person gets inspired there's a flow of feeling that leads to creation. it could be a painting, a speech, a story, an essay, even one word. that inspiration can be anything and anyone. for me its one special person. a person that always makes my day, listens well, and knows what to do. i get a a rush of emotions that usually helps me think, positively that is. even when we fight i tend to smile a lot because i remember all the wonderful and amazing moments we shared. which makes me feel guilty when its my fault. saying that you're sorry doesn't always fix things. sometimes saying strong words might fix it even if it messes things up first. i learned to try harder to get what i want, to fight for what i think is important, and to always think on the bright side of things. no matter how things work out i still own you a big thanks for all you have done. i wouldn't have gone this far with out you. and for all its worth I'm sorry........

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Nouf: but you said that you guys are getting a divorce?
Mum: he left the choice to me. then the next day he was gone. he called a month later to ask if i signed the papers i just told him im still thinking.
Nouf: did you sign them?
mum: I'm still thinking.
nouf: why haven't you told us?
mum: because i made you hate him for leaving us.
nouf: why did he?
mum: i still don't know..... go to sleep ill grab some water and come back
nouf: good night

I really wanted to sleep but I couldn't not after what I heard. She kept quite all this time it's been like around 10 or more years. She hasn't signed the papers so she still loves him. I just need to know why he left what reason he had.

The next day
Nouf: mama you can leave I'm getting discharged today an I can see that you stayed up all night you're daughters wedding is in this upcoming week do you need to look the best.
Mum: okay bader make sure she eats
Bader: inshallah

Bader:okay what's wrong?
Nouf: my mum told me that she and our dad aren't divorced.
7anan: what??